Eat your fucking heart out

I took this picture a couple of days after I found out that my ex-boyfriend had started seeing someone else barely two months after we broke up. I thought it was a damn good picture, so I put it up on my Myspace thinking to myself, "Ha! See what you gave up, motherfucker?" Petty, I know. But I couldn't help myself. I mean, it's not like we were just some fling. We were talking marriage, kids, everything. I feel like that by moving on so quickly he's totally trivializing our entire relationship, and it pisses me off.

(The one person I know that will probably read this blog has been the person I've ranted to quite a bit about this already. So...sorry Jared! lol)

What set me off today about the whole thing was stupid really. See, Kai (the ex-bf) was the touring guitarist for a band in Norway when they did their final tour before they broke up. There was a live CD produced on that tour, which Kai sent me a copy of when we first got together. One of the songs from the CD randomly came up on my iPod while I was on my walk this morning. It was one of the songs he did backing vocals on as well. Hearing his voice, I quickly went from sad to hurt to angry. Now, he and I are still friends. We still talk. We were friends before we got together, so we have that foundation. He's considerate enough to not talk about the new girl much at all. But I know she exists. And it bugs me. I just feel like it's too soon. Not that I haven't done my share of flirting or what have you. I have. But I'm not DATING anyone. I don't feel ready yet. And it hurts me that he's moved on. But I'll get over it. I know I will.